A Place in Between

For the majority of my youth and even young adult life I wondered why I had gravitated towards the villains of film only to find that many do and it was not just me. Even then there was part of me that has a realization that a lot had to do with seeing every portrayal of my ethnicity as the other in opposition mostly Westerns of course, writing a narrative for a demographic. This is the business of that model.

I grew up with the James Bond movies as anyone else did and time of that model has shown a progression that puts people at odds as with the climate of tension we live in. Nonetheless, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t fond of Bond’s choice to come in form of Daniel Craig so many years back now. Like anything in life change is hard even for something you’re not so committed to but all the same, it was that. A new face different name, a white savior is what I chalked it up to not knowing much but going with the narrative that was going on at the time.

On his final film I can admit how wrong I was about it all. Hindsight is 20/20 as they say. I can say in my defense that I made a turn when Skyfall was released and the writing went into depth which I think happened from the industry itself. It upsets some and that is just change. If anything as an artist I see that we are all learning how empty certain things are without honesty. Of course there will always exist a place for entertainment that is purely over the top but it has been good to see the tide rise in writing beyond simple things.

In the latest take on villain and plot I can see why this was pushed back and the benefits that served the film. For one the plot itself being too close to home on a global reach for it’s premise but also a need to give Craig his just due for his swan song as James.

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The opening sequence was nothing short of greatness with the cinematography and edits. I can only say I was disappointed that I didn’t see this the first time in a theater with premium sound quality which I did the second view.

What compels me to write about this at all is my doubts that were dormant for years that lay to resolve. First that Craig owned his time as the arc of his character written for him. Second the achievement of writing villains with motivation just complex enough to keep a mystery floating in the middle for tension.

Far off are the days of empty villains, or at least I hope, where there is nothing more than being evil for evil sake and a hero to save the day. People can blog or post to their hearts content about how angry they are that things have changed but this started with Darth Vader decades ago, a tyrannical father figure who ultimately showed the compassion of character while being a villain.

There is a power to cinema or at least there was once. I say that because it’s so abundant now and the ability to make video is in everyones hand that has the patience to edit which I can say I’m one at least in the documentary genre which leads me to another villain that was well written.

Syndrome from incredibles

As his lines were written well “when everyone is super, no one is”.

Which brings me back to the humanity of Craig as Bond and it’s achievement. I also think of how well Tarantino wrote the reality of assassins in his films. Two sides of the same coin comes to mind. For some the arc of Craig’s Bond hit too close to home as it explored the unglamorous side of a spy beyond fantasy but a world with repercussions.

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One might wonder why I post these things as they don’t relate to my art of culture but all I can say is like I always have, I exist in this time and I’m shaped by these things around me. I’m not a villain wearing a mask or one riding horseback coming after anyone. I was born in my homeland and this thing that has grown up around me is sometimes a mystery.

It’s only by being a father that I’ve learned how much Native people have been written deep as mythos that I am aware of these things.

It gave me a reason to dig into my empathy for one dimensional characters all these years and see them evolve in writers rooms from countless people speaking up and making things a little more ‘close to home’.

I can appreciate fantasy and fiction as much as anyone else but as they say truth is stranger than fiction sometimes and the world has woken up to that. At the end of the day family at the core of story resonates deeply. In this final chapter of the James Bond work with Craig and it’s storyline this truly hit home. The idea that some of us are born into a world writing us into who we can or cannot be. Unknowing of the opposition that sees you written into a role before you enter the playing field.

I recall an interview with Mike Meyere on Inside the Actors studio when he talked about his father saying to him “even a villain is the hero of their own story”. He made comedy from what the Bond films had turned into.

I met people in my youth who had me in their crosshairs for differences that existed decades before my existence. It had been a mystery to me how that even was and I’m ashamed to say I was oblivious but then again how was that my duty?

Many of my great uncles are gone now and many of them were enlisted in war. As I knew them, I knew them as humble people returning home to do day to day jobs, nothing profound. They laid a foundation for me to become an artist with a conviction to reconnect with the land and the ground beneath my feet.

Equally so all my aunties who made that a point and preserve knowledge by living their lives, not as the center of attention but the movement of being.

I’d like to think they would value the distance we’ve come all while standing still in the place we’ve always been on these shores. Even if I was seated I was moved by a story and that is universal, I’d like to think so at least.

Far reaches

Looking up or down. For divers it’s all the difference.

Committing means a lot and absence of truth or integrity is part of that. We’ve all been burned in our lives. Ambitions larger that ourselves. It’s grounding but we are reminded of the values of what is holding us up. Hands of love, patience and elder far beyond beauty that is empty.

At turns of my grandmothers brushes with death nurses aided her and I think of what that meant to her. The light that emulated from her being and what it means to be that person who sees that glow before it fades. Something in me wanted for so long capture this idea of respect for that moment before the light goes out in a beautiful capture of what would be absent soon after.

My grandmother was my world she always will be, nothing can change that.

Years follow her absence but I want to make work she aimed me towards. Be Bigger than you know. Challenge yourself and see beyond yourself but the good of others.

when XM radio was new I remember driving her around just so she could hear songs of her time. On one occasion though I turned the dial wrong and by chance it came onto this song.

Before the time you had ability to rewind or go back.

I drove her back home because I told her I met Chris Cornell once and she was so excited about it. I picked up my guitar and tried to figure it out. It was just a song, just a moment.

Little did I know that I would meet those people even in passing years later.

Far beyond that fire lit within me then I know that place.

I played a show at under the rail with my friends long ago feeling larger than life. My family in the audience and when I came back to them days later all they said was, we think you’re on drugs, which I wasn’t. I was so upset and let down but I connected to tattoo culture and friends I turned my back on music.

Years later I picked up my guitar in the studio and think of that time I met Cornell and how I wanted to howl like him. I’m reminded how I told my grandmother about Mark Arm and Lane Staley.

It made me a bigger person, the fact that she wanted to know a new song moved me forever. So when I landed in Tokyo to learn that Cornell offed himself this song came to mind knowing she’s gone, something I can never take back. I have to pick up these pieces. Know that these things that move you are far reaching.

I was reluctant to put my hand at brushes but it came to me this idea that if you can pick yourself up, you can dust yourself off and make a new.

A New Day Will Dawn

I can never explain how my art is made because it just happens. Like asking a song writer the same thing or a writer of novels.

Northing more painful than the void of idea.

Over the years I’ve met many who tell me they couldn’t draw a straight line to save their lives and I think I understand that to a degree now. I share that about my relationship to numbers and measure conversation.

I say conversation because in all of our places of knowledge we work in we have a community. We gravitate towards forces that pull us in. Pavlovian but by nature. Sometimes I think the beauty and tragedy of our being is the very idea we know so much. We are all just explorers really set out on adventure.

Years before I started my path as an artist others laid a foundation just like anything else it changes. There was a time I looked to one painting or sculpture from this or that artist but I always wanted more from them.

When Bruce Cockburn released “Waiting for a Miracle” I admit I bought it only for it’s art cover. I wanted to connect to something that was Native desperately for feeling so alone in my plight for connecting to being Native. It was all there in the album cover though. Robert Davidsons design the moved Native art of our region forward.

I was looking to an outside world for feeling of worth and didn’t realize the value of songs I had been raised with from many houses until I was able to look back at how I clawed my way up from inside a dark place believing that Coast Salish art was erased or irrelevant.

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I talked about severance of Chief Sitwell for many years. It come back to me until I watched the Reverent. Capturing a number of ideas in film and the power of it.

There are two sides to every tale. In my belief there can be healing in that. Some stories are written before we get here, battles before our birth. One becomes a born enemy of a family one does not know for years. This is complication of progress and time sped up to be effective but damaging.

To be clear I am not descendant of Sitwell but I value everything and his warriors for my existence

The father who raised me comes fromf Whitebird. I am far away from that bloodline but it drives this idea from Chief Joseph. Not that I will Fight no More Forever but I will love my people far beyond my time.

Our things transform and new songs are made. I am moved to tears at times to see these things happen before me.

I understand Patkanim betrayed my old family but it was before my time and there is nothing I can do to erase that damage. What I can do is make a design that honors sacrifice and reverence for our mountain and warriors before my time with great love and admiration to get me to this place at the foot of a mountain to have ko, To have salmon and company. It gives me paws.

We are nothing without this land and what it give to us. So much knowledge lays beneath our feet and within our bones we don’t thing about.

Still foreign families write music about us and all humanity.

Another you there will never be

In a brief downtime I watched a presentation byf David Boxley Sr. A key point at 29:20. I remember the first time meeting him as a young person and an impeding pressure to forge the path for dancing and preservation. If I could tell him the field he coudln’t go into was a real meaning that gave way for “wolf of the sky” to make sense of.

Many sacrifices have been made for us to make art because if nothing else I was taught that art is a luxury not an essential for survival. I am happy and moved by him acknowledging Nathan because he mentored Steve as much as Holm mentored me.

Alaska Natives joked as well as the BC people about the “Seattle tribe”. and I laughed at it when I was a teen but when I feasted with them and met David in person to learn what that meant I felt I was the butt of a joke. At that same time I was given an essay about “Snakes and Clowns”. about Tsa-qwa-supp.

Pookubs taught me humility and not to lose the forest through the trees.

In my way I want to write this to thank him for humility and to also understand that if I don’t see the world as he does or the people he comes from I have my place in this world and it is the land that drives the art, not me. There is room for many personalities in this house but this house of Si ał is awakened and we can appreciate our place but also know the limits of our reach.

I’m proud to regard his son as my friend but also to say we are fighting to protect our culture equally so. We can be wolves of different houses and co-exist.

There will never be another Mungo Martin, there will never be another Young Doctor. Robert Davidson is not the song of Bill Reid. As artists we are just remixes of the right ingredients and food for thought.

I had to learn many languages with the uncles who made me into a man now. We don’t all wear masks or wear capes but we are still moving the tides along.

My Kiya would say as a teacher as much as Taqsablu that it’s not about the paint you wear but the time you wear it and to take it off when the time is done.

If there is a wolf in the sky there is a wolf in the water.

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Sentimental Values

Today I’m posting with heavy news that my studio had been broken into a couple weeks back. It lead to not only important items needed for the day to day operations but included sentimental items. I’ve been playing catch up to keep projects with crucial deadlines in priority and some have suffered along the way. Mainly printing as so much was taken from the office that I am working to replace still.

All that aside, I’m still working as I do with optimism and hope. I believe that the items taken were for survival of one kind or another in desperation in the times we’re living in. Far from being happy about it, this will take time to recover from but I believe in the people who support my work and those who have reached out during this time as snow covers the ground here on this Valentine’s day in the Pacific Northwest and across much of the country.

Earlier in the week the installation I had been commissioned for was installed and I managed to get video of it to share here. It accompanies work I had done for what seems like forever ago when we all went into lock down and riots took place in Downtown Seattle. The piece that went up depicts a wolf figure holding on to a clock that has the moon in place of the standard hands and numbers. A face looks down on the wolf that is holding the structure symbolic of both protector and watched over. Facing a light that comes directional from the waterline bouncing light onto the right side of his figure with the mountain as the backdrop tucked behind the trees.

As with anything of value, art takes time. I learned quickly with public art anything you see of significance went through a lot just to be in its place. For me with almost any project I’ve taken on it required new tools of some kind or at the very least the replacement of others whether it be brushes or even an outdated hard drive. With the items I’ve made by hand or even the skill I may have taken for granted they required time over money itself and are irreplaceable and valuable lessons within them are treasured experiences.

At the end of the day we’re all caught up at times in our day to day. In isolation which many of my fellow artists can relate is a part of our reality we make peace with early on. On one hand I get to meet a lot of new teams and learn their dynamics but few are long lasting but for clients, galleries and museum relationship or colleagues like anything those are crucial to keeping grounded.

When I started making Valentine’s prints with James Bender and Bruce Cook III years ago it was spontaneous and out of the love for making art and challenging one another to what we could make just to make something. My work with sculpture is informing my graphics and my graphics informed by the idea of light composition and in turn bouncing back and forth.

I’ve been asked many times over the years where ideas for my work come from and I honestly couldn’t point to one source. It’s a mixture of so many things whether it’s a movie or a song or remembering a walk I took when I was stuck from years prior that drifts back into my consciousness while I’m sitting at a table or driving on the freeway stuck in traffic.

In the case of my print I am releasing this year for Valentine’s day which will have to be delayed, it is ambiguous in character. I don’t know of any old story of Wolf and Hummingbird in particular. Regardless, I didn’t question the idea as it came across the paper. I included a sketch in the time lapse video where I thought I would make something dark and try to have empathy for a serpent figure and it wasn’t working and it ended up in an entirely different composition. The beauty of these projects that are outside of commissions holds the freedom to let something happen that I am not approaching with a set depiction or premise. What did stand out looking on it was the need to break the fourth wall of sorts and explore the depth and dimensional exploration that could still read overall and be true to the style of work that I’m finding myself work in now at this moment.

Happy Valentine’s day to you all.

Wave Moving Forward

Like a well known story made into a movie where you know how it ends but you have to watch, such is life. We will all pass along some day eventually but I’m certain that everyone has certain figures in their life that feel immortal. I know for myself that was Bill Holm. By the time I started on my path as an artist Bill had already become legendary for his devotion to understanding and participating in Native culture in the Pacific Northwest. That had been somewhat controversial in the eyes of some however his passing has helped me pinpoint my discomfort around appropriation and it’s definition in my view.

There are some who felt the he was appropriating culture when looking back on that long life he lead it was a very different landscape. It’s no secret that Native culture has been all over the map in the public eye. On one hand it’s heralded by boy scout culture and then absolutely despised by some who feel it is downright immoral. The more I look at Bills background on paper and what I know from personal accounts with him he was able to serve as a bridge in his time here. As with any heroic or pivotal figure there are formative years and from what I understand he was drawn to Native culture and the diversity of it as it is not one thing.

I worked with him for the first time after spending years working under the guidance of one of his main students Steve Brown. The Bill Holm Center was formed and I was taken back to be invited to be part of it. At that time I was asked to curate works with Bill, Robin Wright and Susan Point. I met Bill formally for the first time although I’d attended several events before but never really had a deep conversation with him. I found myself sitting across the table with him at a small teriyaki restaurant in Seattle. We were waiting for Robin to find a parking spot where we were dropped off and I could feel the silence creep in painfully as I thought what to say so I just admitted I was nervous to meet him and be working on curation with him. He smiled and just said “well, I’m just a man like you. Someday you might be in my shoes and someone could be nervous talking to you but you’ll still just be a man”. It put things into perspective which I’m sure he’d gotten used to by that point.

Bill at the Ivar’s Salmon House

Bill at the Ivar’s Salmon House

I should note that over the years I’d never actually carved with him but I had learned a great deal second hand from Steve and my late great Uncle Jerry techniques in tool making and process that are part of my life to this day. I was honored to be commissioned to do two painted murals for Camp Norwester at his persistence to have me do. His aim was to have Coast Salish representation from a Coast Salish artist and I was happy to spend time with him and his wife Marty on that island with my son.

Norwester Wolves in progress (still from time-lapse)

Norwester Wolves in progress (still from time-lapse)

After working on the mural I was asked to come up and help with a canoe that was to replace one Bill had carved in the 80’s that was damaged beyond repair from a storm on the island. Given that the island was far off it was quite the experience. I should note that there, there is no amenity to the like of electricity beyond a generator so work was done purely by the light of day. There was a great reward from that experience I wouldn’t trade for the world carving alongside my mentor with my son and his as Bill would stop by and sit to visit periodically and socialize.

Looking back on many things he shared with me I’m mostly moved by his openness and honesty of feeling he didn’t know it all. On one trip I took a walk with him and shared my frustration about losing out on grants because I didn’t fit in the categories of traditional vs contemporary. He shared how despite his successful career he’d been questioned by scholars for his efforts that didn’t fit their narrative which brings me to the first time I heard about him in a negative light early on. There were a handful of people I met early on who talked down written word about Native art with the belief that one can’t learn culture or art from a book. I later realized that most of that came from a perception that his success stemmed from a book that simply brought attention to and value to Northwest Coast Native art as a window into a universe unto itself. Never did I feel his writings were a way to tell people how to ‘be Indian’ as some had claimed.

I would love this image remixed by someone integrating Alf with Bill at the center.

I would love this image remixed by someone integrating Alf with Bill at the center.

I’m including this Stan Lee image I love because it is analogous and conveys the depth of this loss in our Northwest Coast art practice and culture. Bill didn’t invent Native art just as Stan Lee didn’t invent storytelling or comic books. It was the power of persistence and dedication that eventually scratched the surface for people to appreciate and value for what would have otherwise been shrugged off as unsophisticated. To further the analogy Lee was not alone in establishing a base line and with Holm to say the least Bill Reid (Haida) was a driving force as well as Mungo Martin (Kwakwaka’wakw).

Bill seldom seemed challenged by much of anything and kept his determination and independence. Sitting with him I often admired his cane he had carved himself and asked about it once and he said, he knew he' was going to need it and that was truly in spirit of the art tradition of what Tsa-qwa-supp called utilitarian. Form and function meeting with art beautifully matched.

Back to why I’ve included this photo. I imagine the vast knowledge he retained visually about the nuances of the art styles he admired and supported. He was vigilant about education in pressing how diverse Native culture was and remained into a future where it wasn’t static or confined. His work was opening the eyes to some who would not see it otherwise and waking up heroes the like of Joe David, Tsa-qwa-supp, Robert Davidson, Calvin Hunt and so many others.

In this snapshot of time I have felt like I was able to be a hero of a bigger picture.

Bill pressed me to write about my perspective which I never felt was all that informed having not come from a formal education yet it dawned on me how I was trained in a sense by a non-systemic form of learning by practice amongst Indigenous means that had never been truly broken despite laws that outlawed it for a time. One of my beloved elders noted Bill as a thread that was necessary to keep the line in tact where it would weave back strong and that the creator needed them for this purpose. As I grew confidence in writing and public speaking I pressed Bill back for a quote regarding the impact that his Analysis of Form had on misleading people to feel Northwest Coast Native art was a formula and to some the only way to practice art that was valid and true.

After many visits where I would share my presentations on my laptop at his house, looking back I know how much pressure that would be but he gave me a quote he said he was comfortable with regarding the issue.

“Had I known Analysis of Form would have been used as a ‘how to do Indian Art’ book, I would have been much clearer about it’s intent and culture groups that it covered” - Bill Holm 2006

I did a few talks where he was in the front row when put that up on the screen to quote him and I’d ask if I got it right. He’d nod and sometimes say ‘pretty much’ which got good laughs.

What I can say and not say enough is how humble he was and how inspiring and infectious his curiosity was and never wavered. He never struck me as someone to hold back knowledge for any sense of power or superiority and if nothing else it was quite the opposite. He could be stubborn about methods of work for sure but if you walked him through the methodology of it he wouldn’t come back to it. Which gave me a powerful revelation about a mentor who is truly about the art and moving it forward.

Burke Museum event. Photo by Jack Storm

Burke Museum event. Photo by Jack Storm

When I was truly terrified to speak Bill was a wave pushing me forward and lifting me up. He never worked against me as an ego but all giving and transparent. Our culture here is moved and shaped by the water. There are nuances by which one can only understand by way of doing or experiencing as oral histories go and the act of creating such has been since time immemorial. I never felt Bill was in his journey with a goal to have a Native name which he has many, or fame and fortune which the art world is not why the majority of us find ourselves wading in the water.

Ember 2010

Ember 2010

In 2010 I made a print I called “Ember” for his 85th birthday. The notion was to signify someone who carries the light forward. When I showed him he noted that it looked not only Northern but very Tlingit. I know he wasn’t being mean in any way but once more encouraging me to find my own way of expression rather than cater to influences for sake of validation. So when years later I made North and South he was happier about the composition and it’s meaning. It’s a design that would be used for the Burke Museum and later a piece that would be made in a mixed media work that would be part of the permanent collection.

What leaves the story on my side somewhat open ended is what I could design that captures the idea of what he’s made possible and it may be a carving, it may be a painting or something animated. Whatever that might be I’m saddened by his absence for now but I will surely never let it leave me because when someone truly impacts your life it stays with you forever.

Bill wrote articulate observations of an art that took generations to build that was nearly overwritten but like a swell builds momentum so much energy transcended that into the hands of a generation rising. Someone once noted a concept that particular forms were the most ‘evolved’ and it referenced a stylistic group. I re-read the book “Indian Art of the Northwest Coast: A Dialogue on Craftsmanship and Aesthetics” that was based on conversations between Bill Holm and Bill Reid the past two days where artist seldom look beyond the pictures which I am guilty of. When talking about a Coast Salish Spindle whorl Holm defended Coast Salish art by pointing out it’s function from the culture it comes from where one cannot judge another culture by direct comparison. Proximity alone does not equate similarity. However, he noted always to me the importance of positive and negative and the relationship of similarities of the old traditions and not to dig into the weeds here that will be for another post of which I’m motivated to venture.

I normally tie up my posts with a song link but given the uniqueness of this situation there are too many and ones that do not have ties to public sharing or links. Even so I can say I know they are many and ones that come to mind stem from not Coast Salish alone but Kwakwala language, Nuu-chah-nulth, and Haida origins. This is only my view in remembrance.

What I can say is whether his energy was a spark that carried fire, a pebble that created a wave or sound that travelled through the air it’s an energy that touched the lives of many. In my small world it was a wave that carried me forward and I am forever grateful.

Out of the Red into the Black

It took years for me to understand the term “black Friday”. Growing up Black was always ominous. Red equally so. Black as darkness, red as urgent and dangerous.

It was only years later when my father shared his explanation of a bigger picture about accounting that it made sense and for anyone who doesn’t know I’ll make it brief. Business in loss not making money are ‘in the red’ and those profiting are ‘in the black’.

I’m opening this post this way on premise of a crossroads of sorts.

On this day I want to share one of my early memories of witnessing a billboard sign that read "Letting an Indian Fish is like letting a fox in the Chicken Coup". Somewhere someone has got to have a photo of that. I remind my son that this time of year while we are a focus of inclusiveness we have been deemed villains for many years by no means of our own making. I feel if the phrase holds true 'survival of the fittest' , we are here because the land and values are a part of who we are. There was a time Uncle Reub shrugged off some of our people wearing gear from the army surplus although it he was proud. Our fisherman were warriors on the water for years while people cut up our nets and damaged boats. History doesn't lie and this day I ask my friends who follow my work it would not be possible without the efforts of my people where bullets flew overhead and rocks were thrown at men who were all within their right to provide for their families for survival.

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I truly believe in alliance and the need for it in time where the word ‘tribal’ has become a negative phrase. It builds a narrative of negative response now and has for some time. Yet here we are advanced with technology like no other with means of communication separated from the very ground we stand on regardless of where we are. To quote the fictional character, Tyler Durden “the things you own, start to own you”. I think that’s how it goes.

I’m not big on politics because I feel it’s bigger than me but as an artist like a comedian I can have commentary so this is just that.

I’ve always admired the works of Chris Rock and Dave Chappelle. With Rock, on his first album, when that was a thing noted in his bit about a comparison of fighters. That ‘the lower you are on the social latter, the better fighter you’ll be”. As they say ‘it’s funny because it’s true’.

When I was on a consulting job a pitch was made where a man got up to with his opening slide of his powerpoint in bold words stating “we are all immigrants here'“. To which I was shifting in my chair, this was in Tacoma the land of my people and this guy was from Philidelphia and non-Indigenous. Little did I know a fellow consultant chimed in to point out she was Indigenous. Much to my surprise she grilled this guy for saying what he did and outlined why to the table. I felt a relief because all eyes were on me because I was labelled coming in as the Native artist and she didn’t carry the label herself. I backed her up of course and I made an ally, not because we had gone into something with a plan but the very fact that our histories and identity would be overwritten as a script that fit a narrative.

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There are people and there will always be people who want things to be as they were in the ‘good ole days’ when ‘fill in the blank’. The idea we are free of racism is a long way away and as Chappelle once stated, America has to have an honest discourse with itself. This is to me what I hear people talk about so often in the mainstream of pop culture when they hate Thanksgiving having to deal with relatives they don’t see. On the flip side of that Native people in our confined spaces have learned to make room for different personalities and deal with our differences. This isn’t to say it’s perfect because as a result of disconnection with our language and our practices have adapted.

Alcohol and drug use is a part as it is in any colonized people. It’s an escape and impoverished people all over know this.

I’m asked so often annually as I expect when Thanksgiving rolls around what I feel about it and I’ve grown from it not unlike Chappelle’s skit he talks about as the person he was at stages in his life.

When someone asked me about Thanksgiving in my teens I’d shrug it off because I didn’t think anyone would listen honestly.

When asked about it as a man in my twenties I was ranting and angry for what I couldn’t explain because I didn’t have the way in to explain how backwards the notion was.

As a father of a teen now I am writing this with hopes that my son won’t have to deal with the question in anguish.

The world is not black and white alone, it’s many things and America as we know it is a work in progress. There are so many things one could lose themselves in diving into rabbit holes. If this experiment is to work it means shying away from sweeping ‘dark’ history under the rug and having a willingness to acknowledge atrocity in order to move forward.

As I’ve said time and time again ‘consider what the phrase “land of opportunity” means from an Indigenous perspective’ I say this because I’m grateful that at a young age when I didn’t feel right not standing for the pledge of allegiance in elementary school because I was beat up and called ‘an Injun’ in my homeland that I had support of my grandmother along with a small group of friends who were from different ethnic backgrounds. It gave me hope in my small town as a possibility of what we are seeing unfold today as we acknowledge injustice and solidarity.

work in progress…

work in progress…

There will always be differences and one cannot out match the other on the side of who was slighted more because that’s equally unproductive.

What matters is communication and to acknowledge the land you stand on because it’s a foundation that grants you a place to be.

Returning to the lessons of my father if we are indeed looking to get out the red into the black there remains a lot to be accounted for.

Excuse Me

It’s a day late but as they say better late than never which couples well with ‘never judge a book by it’s cover’. I’m opening with this to set the tone that this is not so much art driven as it is to recognize a Veteran who I never met but impacted my life in a very random way.

I grew up gaming with Nintendo consoles and later a wii. Eventually as my son grew past ‘childish’ things as gaming advanced we played Xbox on a regular basis. I was taken back by how many people were gaming that I wouldn’t have thought did but then again I doubt anyone would consider me a gamer and I use that term lightly for the hardcore gamers out there. I guess what I’m saying is I’m not totally removed from it and therefore engaged in it as much as someone who plays basketball would call themselves a pro and get dunked on.

Ok all that aside. My story in this instance starts with a break up and a slump that had me down for a while. Gaming gave me an escape from long hours of working on projects that were mostly a long game of commitment. Sculpture in woodwork and my work in general is something that takes a long amount of planning and execution to find it’s realization. So as I was playing and connecting with people on top of a small solid group of friends I know in real life the extension gave me insight to people who are less connected in real life where it’s focus is mostly a common goal. To me that goal is to escape not unlike taking in a book or movie for engagement. This was a new dimension to venture something I didn’t know and be humbled by people who would spend hours supporting creatives who shape worlds as an extension of our own.

Being in a small group of Natives who game casually one night I stumbled into what would become an eclectic group of unlikely friends. Three Pacific Northwest Natives, an Englishman, a Latino and an ex military man from the South. We were an unlikely team but in that dynamic, our contrast lead to great conversations may of which were uncomfortable but insightful.

This leads me to this post I’ve been wanting to put up for a while but was reluctant to until now.

As gaming goes with live gaming connecting in competitive genres people can be brutal to say the least. I learned this by playing Titanfall on it’s early release where people can take that game so serious they would find your social accounts and blow you up if you performed bad on a team they were on in a random lobby. Eventually I improved but learned just how serious people took the experience. Not unlike Twitter or any social platform people can get worked up and make assumptions without real face to face engagement so it can cut both ways in that regard.

One evening as my friends that I know in person were offline I was messaged in randomly to help with a task a team needed another player on and so I jumped in. That decision changed the way I thought about gaming onward. I think mainly because it was a call for help where I could at least contribute something to a common goal. In that group was the Southern guy rough around the edges but honest and kind, perhaps brutally honest but memorable to say the least. I enjoyed having difficult conversations that informed us all as a whole over the couple years we gamed with him. In all I was reminded how we all just look and appreciate people we connect with even if it’s for a brief moment of time but genuine. I was reminded how unlikely it would be for us to interact if not for the internet and a game. It made things fun and I looked forward to logging on and learning a point of view I’d learn something from even if I didn’t agree.

Sadly, as we were all getting to know one another in our group like anything, like a band perhaps things fall apart. Not in the way that we didn’t get along but real life takes priority and while I was moving into a new house I wasn’t online for a while. In our group I learned Duck was diagnosed with a terminal illness he was alluding to but didn’t want any help from us or pity. He enjoyed his anonymity and privacy. He did share how he felt shut out because he was older and we accepted him and he enjoyed the recognition we gave him. One day he didn’t show up and that day turned into a week and then into a month that became a year and so on. In that time passing we started to regard him as the Yondu character from the Marvel universe and I think he may not have liked it but it fit his personality and it has a sentiment that is true.

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I guess I write this down to get outside of an idea that Natives only write or think of their own mythologies. As much as I do I’ve grown up in a time where we are connected and influenced by the time we grow up in. Just a human experience, not unlike anyone else necessarily but maybe reflecting more on it I suppose.

It’s a day after Veterans day and one of our friends shared this photo we did our detective work on and wanted to recognize the impact of randomness and the personas we have online have threads of us within it regardless.

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Happy Veterans day Duck.

Survival in Inktober

I’m just going to say I wrote a blog post following this that took days and then didn’t save it so this is going to be brief.

Over the coarse of carving I tore my shoulder

Over the coarse of carving I tore my shoulder

Over the course of the past year I had been working non stop to take on what looking back on was what felt like an impossible task. I agreed to create five major sculptures of which to day three are complete and installed. In the process aside from the pandemic we all faced together I had a small advantage in that I work isolated 90% of the time. I felt optimistic yet like anything in life, no matter who you are or what you do, things happen. This meant limited access to supplies I needed in the studio and critical for time sake. Making due and working this way made me appreciate the foundation I was granted by mentors and the experience they’ve handed onto me along with new ones that come from, as they say ‘necessity is a mother of invention'“. Equally so being a creature of the night as many creatives are I was challenged by the idea that if I went out I wouldn’t see anyone. There is a comfort that if I chose I could go out and have interaction and with the uncertainty of what the virus was or how it would impact my social responsibility as someone who values very much the interaction with elders I was between a rock and a hard place.

I had been working for a 5 month stretch without much rest and just as we installed the third sculpture I had been finalizing the fourth going onto the fifth. Moving timber as a day to day operation I felt a pull in my shoulder. It wasn’t fast and in a matter of days I found myself questioning whether a trip to the doctor would be safe or not. I eventually received treatment and found a long delay as would be expected with circumstances.

At that point carving wasn’t an option and rest was mandatory by orders with a wait on judging the assessment of surgery. Time has a funny way of making you deal with things when time stops still and this was no different. It made me appreciate and feel for the businesses who had no option but to shut down, for our health care workers on the front lines, people who have lost loved ones.

On the flip side of that I was motivated by the outreach of what people were doing to stay connected even in small gestures doing what they could no focussed on what they could not. I sat at the desk working to regain a comfortable way of sketching if I knew I couldn’t carve and as October was coming in and the installation was finalizing I found motivation to apply myself to Inktober which I had missed out on while doing other work. I also took time with my son to watch movies and shows and get my head out of the hole as it were.

Mr. Wick

Mr. Wick

Inktober is an annual event that calls on artists to do a daily exercise of making work in ink with provision that pencil can be a foundation but to stick to a theme template set daily with a subject matter. No size restriction, no subject specifics just make your interpretation of a word. It’s good to do this to challenge yourself and break comfort zones you wouldn’t normally visit. No prize money, no glory, no penalty if you don’t follow through just dedication to the art and what it might teach you.

The first week is relatively easy just like a work out plan to get in shape once you’ve committed. There are many spin offs within the Inktober challenge and I posed that previously that Danike Nolie made a few years back.

Fish Day One

Fish Day One

Out of the gate I wanted to do something different than my comfort zone. I generally draw salmon or sea life related to my Coast Salish roots. I also wanted to apply dimension and movement to images if I could. Lastly, I wanted to avoid making polished images and draw freely without templates and lose the feeling of the relationship between the concept as it unfolded before me.

What I was keying in on right off the bat was the markers that were beat up over time and not wanting to go to the art store if I didn’t need to. I recalled how in high school we’d make the most of what we had using old felt markers as blending tools. I also found myself using Yupo (synthetic paper) to transfer ink onto other papers and experiment with the effects like printmaking as it was all ink afterall.

By the second week that is where you wonder if You have it in you to keep going because the list is daily keeping momentum is a challenge.

Outpost Day 15

Outpost Day 15

Outpost was where I hit a wall truly. Outpost generally thought of as military I over thought the subject as an Indigenous person and feeling defeat. I wasn’t going to glorify that iconography but revisit it somehow. I’ve always looked to our Mountain as a guide or marker. The trees and the land itself as a calming source of stability. I drew the wolf figure somewhere between a cartoon sketch stretched out into 3d from a lot of our woven baskets I grew up admiring in my childhood.

Closing into the finish I had watched several movies I hadn’t for a while or even at all. One in particular the last chapter of John Wick. I had actually been wondering how I would go out with a bang to close out the last day. I recalled the mythology built in the series of an assassin who killed three men with a pencil. Pen mightier than the sword as they say and it’s all captured in the series itself. So it only seemed fitting to capture something outside my comfort zone as I’m not a portrait artist by any stretch and found an entertaining youtube personality who I watched as I was trying to further my self education in the field. Angel Granov is worth a watch or two. Even it I didn’t apply what he’s done it’s a source of entertainment and appreciation for people who work in that type of work. He isn’t an ‘inker’ from what I understand but the fundamentals are there in his videos.

That said I wrapped it all up and made it to the finish line and can say I made it to the end of October Inktober 2020.

Day 31 Crawl

Day 31 Crawl

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Current

Don’t ever kid yourself. The story is perceived from one lens but you are many aspects if you pay attention. With language so much can be understood and in place of ranting today I’m going to share what I can in what I can communicate with positivity vs negatives.

Everything bases on contrast in art and it took me years to understand as someone who grew up based largely in the English language basing perception of positive and negative meaning emotion.

It was only in my adult years introduced to the language of art speak with positive and negative as terms of communicating ideas that would take time to understand. I felt like an idiot among art people who understood and would wield art language over my head while all the time for lack of a better term, sucking, at what they did and try to make me feel inferior.

Some of us I suppose draw ourselves into a calling from a current we can connect with and it takes time like whirls in the water. Like a current picked up from the sea that feeds the trees and then comes back to you.

Current (blue blur)

Current (blue blur)

In the industrial age it made a sea of people fighting and social media equally so but at the end of the day we do all we can to keep our heads up. The tide goes in and it goes out with rising swells.

When I was a teenager I was motivated by reading about M.C. Escher who spent a decade to understand geometry to make art with an idea he had he knew he wanted to realize. His work influences so much work today and he’s a classic example of an artist who was suffering in his time.

What has changed in the modern era is how the value of art has risen to an explosive rate like nothing else and I’m amazed to see it and be part of it. Today if you learn to code you can write patterns and it may take a long climb and feel like hell, like getting that chlorine sting in your nose or sea water but in best of times a part of that tide will pull you up from the undertow.

I’m committing to this to attribute inspiration from deep roots of what drives the art not so much based on a timeline but connections that help me keep my head above water.

Adaptation and the Civilized

I’m not one to make political art or known for that at least largely but there are things that have to break the surface. I don’t consider myself a brand or a company I’m just doing what an artist does and that is create. It’s less common I’ve learned in recent years that one can appreciate things from a far spectrum that don’t fall within a genre or group. As someone who grew up playing music from my teen years I valued the musicians who would look at the value of that range. I recall a friend who was a guitarist who appreciated the pop music in the likes of Hall and Oates as much as he could appreciate Tom Waits.

In my small world of art in genre there are factions that tie into culture and actually stem from a long line of beliefs. The reason I note this is that like anything with time, things change and like the tide rising and falling out there comes change like the sands of times on the shore.

I can’t say when I first saw or heard about any music festival where people wore headdresses but it became a thing for a time. Coachella was definitely part of that ultimately and when I noted to people how much it dug into me they said I was being too sensitive. It was just a few days ago when I listened to the Joe Rogan podcast with David Choe as a guest when he shared a story about being at a crosswalk in LA the day Parasite won the academy award with calls coming over to him in congratulations celebrating a milestone he had nothing to do with.

It made me recall a similar story from comedian Aziz Ansari on Jimmy Kimmel sharing something that has since been taken down but the jist was that same sentiment. When Slumdog Millionaire won awards people were patting him on the back as to say aren’t you proud and he admitted yeah I felt pride and his response was great. “wow, are white people must be hyped all the time, Back to the Future, that’s us! Titanic, that’s us! Every movie but Slumdog and Boyz in the Hood, that’s US”!

It brought me back to this idea Choe talked about though about American Asians keeping their heads down because they have threat of being ‘sent back’ to where they come from. Equally it brought up this story from Sherman Alexie who was interviewed once sharing a story about being at a car accident scene when he venture out of his car and confronted by someone who told him “go back to where you came from” and despite that context it was clear he didn’t mean go back to your car it had to do with him being, NOT white.

I could wax on and be judged for whining about things but for whatever reason I feel compelled to share this experience as someone who is Native American who has felt like a stranger in the land of my ancestry.

I remember this from my early friends of high school when people would talk about going somewhere after graduation to backpack and travel. I responded to this friend with the notion I’d want to travel in time where I would not feel like a stranger. The reaction was puzzling and very well understood until I explained that people with Irish roots romanticize Ireland and so on and so on with cultures and places.

It brings me to this revelation of what bothers me about our culture as costume. When I went to Taiwan and met the people I experienced how frustrated they were at how they were perceived as manufactures and slave labor. They retained their language and culture in a way on number levels far greater than our Native population. They looked to us in reverence for our survival amidst great pressures to assimilate and disappear. But like oil and water there are some things that don’t mix.

Ultimately for whatever reason it might be, the language and culture are still here. This is not to say that life is perfect by living in ways that once were. In fact I think of the teacher I learned German from sharing a story about a small town on the East Coast who isolated so much they retained old Germanic language so when Germans came to see them they were locked in a time period that seemed foreign.

When I do public work in way of sculpture whether residency or demonstration I’m often met by people who judge the tools I used even though the majority of them are of my making based on traditional methods replacing stone with steel. Steel that I have worked into shapes myself that were developed for the wood types we use for sculpture here, mostly Alder and Red cedar.

The most common critique is how I am doing something, wrong. That I am not doing things as were read about in books using stones and beaver teeth to execute ‘authentic Native American art’. This judgment I’ve learned to keep my head down but over time I shed my skin to not live in a book or restrict myself to confines of perceptions of outsiders because in art there are no rules.

A friend who worked in language from Vancouver, BC told me to refrain from using the term ‘evolve’ because it leans into the concept that we are primitive and uncivilized. This was a large basis of the Alaska-Yukon Pacific exposition that posed non Eurocentric American culture as superior. It intentionally excluded Coast Salish people and pitted Filipino culture against Japanese as a high contrast. The idea was to say to western cultures new to the territory that Native American culture was obsolete and that other cultures were to aim at a way of life that was an answer.

In this time of ‘lock down’, I’ve had time to reflect and think about these things and remember that what we call tradition stems from our values. A way of doing something is not done for the sake of doing it a certain way but has to as it is universally understood ‘form follows function’.

The world is in a state of realizing one cannot eat money for sustenance. In words that I believe are also cross racial in concept are captured in the idea of forging iron by fire.

If the idea is truly survival of the fittest, then what remains of our Native people here, we’ve endured many fires and extreme policies to wash us away like sands with the tides. But like a rising tide or where lightning touches the water, it’s like our version of Thunderbird known to be small but calling out a storm.

This is not a call for war this is a call to know the land itself has been a conductor, a conduit for a moment to pause and ask where we are heading if we are accelerating as we are.

I rarely share works in progress but I feel a need to here regarding coyote. When I heard about coyotes in the cities under lock down I came back to this again and again. Coyote from my understanding brought fire to the people and was cast out not unlike Promethius. This is a story though of endurance and transformation. Where in these times we can learn from so many sources and be something different.

This idea I’m working on now is exploring paintings inspired from technical aspects of studying my great grandmothers oil work and to remix them into something that tells a story that is not still life but real life.

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This concept has to do with knowing we all have fears and we turn our tail but at the same time there is something we need inside. To love oneself and know not to take blame for fires you didn’t make and be made the villain or victim. The life we live is a path of many stories where the roads cross and it is far from linear. It is about adaptation and survival.

Lessons

When I graduated high school my aunt gave me a book that my son found and teased me about recently in our last move not long ago. Oh the places you’ll go by Dr. Seuss. It made me smile to know how universal the idea is really because none of us truly know where we are going or what is going to happen but that is part of it all really.

In times that I’ve felt deep frustration or doubt in myself I find little treasures left behind of something someone said or a song shared or even a shard of glass washed up on the beach shaped into a necklace as a gift when there was nothing to give but time and energy.

I’ve learned a lot from isolation and missing more than ever the connection to the people I’ve met over my travels and those I look forward to seeing again. I’m grateful today for my uncles who were loggers who taught me how to make tools, forge steel and make something from what seemed like nothing.

Bernie Gobin, known as Kai Kai in our language Bluejay was one of the great pillars in making things. In this time I’m finding my own voice in this very blog remixing the songs that I grew up with into something that isn’t new but lasting.

Kai Kai

Kai Kai

There are variations of our language that call bluejay Kai Kai and Sky Kai (phonetical) all the same it’s mostly understood by the dialect speakers. I’m reminded of how powerful some things are over time like waves washing over the rough edges of rocks to make them smooth or the river beds alike. They are still rocks and useful to us all the same. I recall the movie Indecent Proposal where Woody Harellson’s character makes a speech as an architect saying “even a brick want’s to be something”.

Much of Indigenous culture comes from the idea of animism and I can’t speak as a professor but an artist who has been lucky enough to meet people and learn from the experiences they’ve shared.

For whatever the reason my work comes back to the moon and the water often. It’s very much a part of growing up where I have but at the same time universal in many ways because even if one grows up in the desert one needs a body of water to survive and the moon is perceived all around.

I get back to this idea of gratitude that washes over me today. I didn’t know where I was going when I started out but there was a point I realized I needed to get there and I’m still going. That is something that may not make sense in the interpretation of traditional English language speaking but nonetheless important and maybe better said in pictures over words.

As someone who identifies with the nocturnal mostly I’m moved by the songs of the early birds when the dawn is about to break. When the dew is on the grass and I keep going at times to finish the idea I’ve committed to. Walking my dog, smelling the flowers not because I’m wide awake but the notion that I’m driven to continue if I’m called on to do so.

Sharing a lesson from the men who gave me great value to strive to learn I made this with my son that has ties to Kai Kai and dxwsqius alike.

My Anti-hero Tsa-qwa-supp

Although I had met Tsa-qwa-supp one time his body of work has huge impact on all of us in this art practice. He was notorious for being a difficult person and I head many of them of how I shouldn’t talk to him. But I’m reminded of the misunderstood and how to me Art was a Sirus Black figure met with a touch of Han Solo and Captain Jack Sparrow.

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Tsa-qwa-supp

I’ve been leaning on this idea of hindsight as 2020 in the literal sense because it’s easy to call out figures who were perceived villains and anti-heroes. Don’t get me wrong there is true injustice and corruption all around and I don’t have any issue with speaking to it.

Perhaps now more than ever it’s important to look at reform and for what Dave Chapelle said in his stand up years ago “an honest discourse with ourselves as a nation”. Tsa-qwa-supp was shaped by abuse of a boarding school system which few could relate to today. He shaped that as difficult as he was at times into work that would show a side of his culture and identity shared with the world that stemmed from it but transformed.

In this field of work like any other there are ups and downs and mentors and students alike. Working with Loren White he shared a few small prints that I admired from Art’s earlier works when he was truly coming into his own style of expression. It’s not easy for many to read unless you look at the body of work that an artist creates over years and even decades to arrive at.

That was one thing I was most grateful for to curate alongside Bill Holm and Susan Point for the Burke Museums Exhibit. Looking in the collection of how these heroes of mine started out like anyone else with some lesser refined work but work nonetheless.

I recalled in documentaries Isabell Rorick talking about the pains of learning to weave and watch her teacher take the weaving back and reduce it by half with few words if any. At the same time it was the value of knowing there was a standard that was needed. I feel that is something needed. Necessary to be good at what you are committed to. It takes great sacrifice to learn the skills and what it will take. Some could say that was overcompensation for our people deemed as savage and or primitive. The contrary being how well skills where developed on a relationship with the land and the value of making items to the best of your ability.


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Art said what he had to so without holding anything back. He was a lion and in a lot of ways I wished I had been able to work with him despite the stories. It is all a matter of who is willing to trade the time to a challenge and survive. I’m not advocating violence in a workplace by any means but at the same time it exists and in many cases not to make the student better.

I was told a story about Art cussing someone out asking about how to paint and he just shrugged them off and said to figure it out. It became somewhat of a legend and the longer I thought about that it was like asking a guitar player on tour how to tune their guitar.

I’ve looked at writing this off and on for a long time and one thing came to mind of my older keynote talks going over them where I featured one of his masks that I always admired. It is called “Money Maker”.

Money Maker, Tsa-qwa-supp cedar, paint feathers.

Money Maker, Tsa-qwa-supp cedar, paint feathers.

The mask has the dollar symbol stylize and a not to the green of money. Two levels of this being the high value of our old masks that aged copper and iron to create the bright green/blue color. I always theorized that it was an expression of the time in which we live. Our old masks from this region were about ceremony honoring hunters, fisherman, whalers and nature with story. Today we are just making currency move along.

The irony here is this mask was stolen because I wanted to find a way to include it in an exhibition.

What I wanted to say. I mentioned that I met him once during the Victoria BC Canoe journey. He had a drum he had just painted and he looked fairly approachable. I was nervous given all the stories about him but I went up to talk and note who I studied with and that I was a fan of his work. That I had just bought one of his prints for my cousin.

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He was smiling a lot and I was a little taken back about the monster he was made into. He was proud of the drum he just painted and we talked a bit about painting. At a pause his grandson probably ten at the time pulled at his shirt and said “grandpa, what kinda paint do you use” snickering and in a loud childish whisper. He said looking at me “this isn’t one of those guys” and put his hand on my shoulder. I asked if I could take his picture and he agreed and said he should sit down to look stoic. But his grandson came back to photo bomb the pics and he couldn’t help himself and said to just shoot the photo but he wasn’t showing he was angry.

Tsa-qwa-supp at Victoria, BC photo by Qwalsius - Shaun Peterson

Tsa-qwa-supp at Victoria, BC photo by Qwalsius - Shaun Peterson

It wasn’t long after I learned he was diagnosed with cancer. He passed in 2003. A few years later when I went thru a hard time I was gifted the print of that drum design and one called Baah-booq. And not long after my relative I gave that print to sent a photo of the Wolf Pole that is one of my favorite public works. The story of wolf dances coming to the people.

The First Wolf Dancer Pole

The First Wolf Dancer Pole

Changing the Narrative

Numbers and code. Something I always felt I struggles with because I was never good at math in all my years of schooling. It wasn’t until I was failing art that I leaned on and grasped the power of geometry and algebra with a teacher most of my peers saw as a difficult teacher.

Something about the idea of formulas and writing letters and high raised squares intrigued me. I learned the DOS program language when I was in 4th grade in a summer program that my grandmother signed me up for and the teacher of it gave me a coloring book about Northwest Coast Native art.

Her name, Jene Navarro. The book was mostly Alaska Native art as that was predominant for years and defined the Seattle and Tacoma region in the Pacific Northwest.

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Years later I would find myself in the field of doing this as a profession but along the way I was always following technology and computers. My first of podcasts was Ken Ray and then Nosillacast and then the network that Leo Leporte built up of TWIT. In there I met heroes of a different field that people would assume that by my being Native American I wouldn’t glom onto. Whatever the reason it was meant to be that I was moved by these people and their devotion to tech and following it. They got me through dark times as a community of tech geeks.

I identified very much with Allison’s frustration of the common phrase “so easy your mother could do it” relating to understanding computers. Something about that stood out to me because I thought of that with the Geico ads of “so easy a caveman can do it”. My tie in is the perception that one size fits all. Judging a book by the cover. I realize I have a different life than most Natives but regardless I’ve tried to make the most of technology and math understanding worlds that are usually at odds.

As a Native I’m often told that “you’re not doing that right” or “that’s not the way your ancestors did this from what I read in books from school” and my all time favorite “your ancestors didn’t have steel”.

I think of the skit Dave Chappelle did about what he calls the three daves at different times in his life and his reactions in each. Not to give away his bit but I can say my interpretation.

When I was called out when I started out for using steel as tech I was diplomatic and apologetic. Years later I responded with a question “would you tell someone from Japan they have to dress in Kimono and be who you read about in books”? As the current state of things I share a response of why I regard my work as traditional innovation with this.

Tradition has innovation built into itself to be adaptable. No different than a rising tide. Our ancestors lived with abundant resource and now we have to make the most of what we have, are you doing that for yourself”?

I felt vindication when I watched the documentary Press, Play Pause when artist Bill Drummond talked about technology in music.

“(the) artist comes after the technology. The artist didn’t invent oil paint, the artist didn’t invent the moving camera (points at camera filming interview)… in that sense technology is great”.
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I’ve studies tool making under my mentors and methods standing on the shoulders of giants. I didn’t write the code or invent the shapes but I’ve taken the time to put them together to tell a story in some way I can make sense of. I don’t get it right out of the gate by any means but in my profession I treasure the old growth cedars that we make into art. The fur, feathers, shells all come together to move us to make song and dance a reality.

The combination of materials I use that are perceived as unconventional stem from a value of our traditions. Our values drive the traditions from the time we live in now only if we pay attention to them.

It wasn’t long ago that it was a common phrase “the only good Indian is a dead one”. It always puzzled me that with abundant resource we can’t find a way to exist with all there is.

The way I feel about things as of the current state is we are in a hard reboot that was needed.

I can say that I’m just as moved by the hard work of my ancestors as much as I am moved by the work of Allison Sheridan and Brianna Wu as much as I can love and be moved by Gregg Deal and Ryan Redcorn.

I may not have invented the steel I carve with or the code I write to make UV maps for my renders. It takes many arms reached out to tell a story and remix these things into something bigger than ourselves. I just want to take time to acknowledge the pieces atop my family that is a community that is global and far reaching because Chielf Seal although it be debatable said ‘all things are connected’ and it’s no coincidence that tech is based in the Pacific Northwest.

Today I use CAD as much as I can with Rhino, C4D, and sketchup to make the most of dwindling resources all the while working with engineers and architects to preserve story and the promise of a story where we aren’t just written into history as a side note but one that can see us people living alongside in the modern day protecting values of limited resources. Using the tools we have at the time we live in to be better.

For what it's worth

The times they are a changing or are they?

I was running in the morning with my dog when lightning was touching with the rain. Growing up here I learned to appreciate it more than complain about it. An elder once told me when the storm is on it’s reminder the ancestors are speaking to us connecting the sky world to the land and the water.

That was part of inspiration to design these panels for downtown Seattle

photo by Ashley Genevieve

photo by Ashley Genevieve

My understanding of placing Devilfish at the corner of the street was an idea that we are all moving in many directions but all the while connected by the water. It resonates with Sealths speech of the web and how we are connected. After all in this region technology and connecting us is a big deal here in Seattle.

photo by Ashley Genevieve

photo by Ashley Genevieve

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these went up on my birthday and I was happy to bring something of story to Seattle with good intent of iconography. The whale on the far left corner is a tribute to our Makah relations that despite large opposition were informed by whales for nourishment. The moon governs the tides. The Mountain feeds the fiver and gives the salmon a journey that comes back to us. The islands and the trees give us shelter and the whales remind us we must understand the importance of family.

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As the night went on a different story unfolded and I watched the city on fire and this image always stuck with me. It made me think of Sealth and our chiefs who endured a pandemic without technology. At the same time I was moved to know so many reached out to protect the art I put up that was only planned as temporary to begin with. I’ve always understood that my art is not about permanence but a bridge like the sceleč and the sparrows. The storm happens for a reason to remind us we are all connected and that we don’t all move in the same direction at a time but that is equally important.

Some things are timeless though and for what it’s worth is one of those works of art that remind me after a storm the sun will come out and the sparrows will sing even if it’s still overcast or raining. The water that left the ocean and went into a cloud is coming back to you to feed the trees and give you shelter, and feed out all the same.