As trying as times feel for us all. I like many artists feel the isoloation and in a lot of ways become used to it. Like anything though. It is the simple idea that you “can’t” do something even if not by your choice but another. So in this time of working in isolation one thing that brings me light in the darkness of this studio without windows I know life is thriving and more people are thinking.
I’ve always been a huge fan of nine inch nails but now more than ever I’ve been playing this track and talking to other friends in their studios. My heart goes out to all those lost to this virus. I personally am grateful that my grandmother who was my biggest inspiration in my life, did not have to suffer this anxiety of uncertainty. That said it reminds me how much we have to look out for those other grandparents, parents, sisters uncles and aunties, sons and daughters.
One great thing from this is talking to fellow creatives is the appreciation of what little we have and being resourceful. If anything I hope that lesson is taken from this from all. Resources are not infinite. The fact people would fight over toys at a store or a pair of new shoes I would hope is trivial.
That said for every person I met who said they valued my work and couldn’t draw a stick figure to save their life. I always wanted to say you can and you always could. Some people have been taught that they can’t and fall into a place of what they can’t be. I believe this is a time for reflection the earth set forth and there is no ideal time for things to happen. So if someone told you, YOU were going to face an epidemic in two months you can’t lie to yourself you’d have doubts. Ok, ok, don’t get me wrong there are those who have always lived this way with this in mind but it is like living with hopes of the disaster rather than living itself.
I’m moved at the moment by my friends in the high risk jobs and those who work in the arts that live job to job to literally feed themselves because I remember those days thinking to myself I’ll never have a family because I can’t even feed myself but somewhere in there I had a son to raise along the way and I never planned it but it changed my life for the better. It made me value life and I hope everyone out there is having this moment of revelation to connect and see the side of the ‘other’. Meaning that we are given this moment to look at and hopefully appreciate that money isn’t the answer to things, systems or net worth. It’s vision and listening and most of all feeling.
That’s my novel for today. Oh and here’s that song